I think i gave my parents grief when i was young
i was the black sheep, basically i had issues
i would spend alot of times on my own and not get bored
and they had no idea what to do with me
I see the same patterns with me, even today
i spend alot of time on my own - i use work as excuse
which is not bad, i think
the darkness part of me is the most creative part of me
so i need that part to be who i am, today
interesting …
Here we go again, its another year right
i wanna love more this year - laugh more
do everything my heart desires / make more friends
work harder / be emotionally available for my friends
i was told that im emotionally unavailable [on g chat mostly]
stick to my promises / theres one particular promise
that we made / to express my love through my work
so when i blow / its not me its my love for her. I promise
Listen to more music. Go out more. Believe in others more
Cry more. Be spontaneous more.
Hi my name is George Gladwin Tsakane Matsheke - GG [Trade Mark]
i hope that you have a beautiful year ahead of you
what is about addiction that makes it so attractive or beautiful
weather its porn, music, food, drugs, alcohol. hmmm
i think there reason why people get addicted is becoz of guaranteed pleasure
its the same pleasure that you will get today like you did the last time
i think addiction / hides another side to a person personality or reality
some shit maybe you dont wanna deal with / and addition always helps
Hi my name is George and
i think im addicted to alcohol, being drunk makes me feel better
and i dont have to deal with the other shit. Which is cool.
Il never love again. Ive lost everything
Sorry. I dont know how many times ive heard that word this week
but the thing is that no one has better word than - Sorry!
Everyone is sorry - but no one will be as sorry as i am - ive lost everything
ive lost my heart - now heres the question …. how do i live without a heart?
there no day that goes by that i dont cry - theres no day that passes that i dont think about suicide
theres no day that goes by when i feel whole again - i wanna call her but i cant
i wanna send her mail but i cant - i wanna call her and say that i miss you can i come thru
but i cant -
*Im done
We don’t accomplish anything in this world alone… and whatever happens is the result of the whole tapestry of one’s life and all the weavings of individual threads from one to another that creates something.
I miss a girl
SOURCE
in all honesty i dont know how the hell im going to
go thru with this … Jesus take the wheel. Like i think
that the older you get the more you believe in God
[coz more shit happens] im sure this is the time …
*i miss a girl
ok right, so im a bit drunk
[that means that i refuse to be judged on whatever il typing on this blog]
coz its the truth … i cant lie when im drunk … tried it before - doesnt work.
heres a couple of things that she didn’t like … then we will move to the stuff she liked
theres no easier ways of doing this but here goes … no one teachers you how
to handle these kind of situations … no one teachers you true love but you
experience - only when you know what it looks like you can know what it feels like
She loved me when i didnt even love myself … even when. Now as alex boy
you ask yourself why - does she love you so much - and why do you love her so much
this might sound [gay] but hey … i really lost a best friend, lover, business partner
shrink, traveling partner, play mate, a party people, cheerleader …
my heart will always be scared … i never did this before thats what the virgin said
we being generally warned - pleading to God this is an emergency
*i miss a girl …
Posted by: george in life
i thought the the post i posted before was going to be the last one
clearly God had other plans - i lost someone close to me today
i lost a best friend, lover, teacher, cheer leader, business partner,
play partner, moral supporter, miss thing, nurturer, believer
my stunt 101 partner [we always disappear together at party people]
I lost my heart today … this more painful than breaking it.
*will get back to this when im in a better state [it might not be soon]
Damn this year was great year -
dont have much to say really - errrmm
this should be my last blog for this year
i need to go on a retreat - need to find oneself
then when that is done i pray and hope that i find
what im looking for …
Ive learned the best about me and the worst
ive learned to trust and believe, cry, play - faith
and im still learning - discovering the world
discovering me - the greatest discovery was love this year
no doubt about that.
*I need to do shopping, again. - see you on the flip side
2009 should be another great year.